Illness infringes upon ones life at the most inopportune times. I’ve been fortunate that illness has been a minor distraction or an occasional pesky visitor. But this past year I have discovered the personal power that illness can weld as well as its redemptive light.
In the astrology department, I’ve pretty much ignored aspects that might suggest caution or carefulness regarding my own health. Looking at my own chart has been a planning and organization effort. It has forced consideration of larger issues and questions that are easily ignored. This of course has led me to reconsider the holistic perspectives that can be overlooked. So I’d like to share my story, maybe take a look at what Astrology has to say about this, and maybe draw a circle that includes astrology as an expanding tool of power
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And I’d like to get your view on this matter.
First of all, let me say that I’ve never had a health experience that could be termed unusual. No near death or guiding lights. Its been rather routine. However, through the years I seem to keep some balance and have kept on top, not letting illness get me down. But in so many situations it seems that illness speaks a very personally language. A language full of messages and personal contemplative images.
Someone said that we heal so that we can get better to face life or to prepare for facing death. I am preparing to face life. To live.
Where does illness occur? We are sensitive organisms closely tied to our environment. Even though we live as if we are far removed from questions of life systems, we are in fact tied to life systems that nurture and maintain our being. Air, light, nutrition, psychological conditions, conditions of heart and soul all relate to our intrinsic health. And where there is a discrepancy our well being suffers. Further, in our daily life stress and conflict directly infract upon our fragile existence. Illness reflecting a breakdown of those relationships.
When analysis of the chart is be understudy, Noel Tyl suggest that any developmental tension visible in the chart is a point of reference regarding illness. Especially the 6th-12th axis, the planets present in those houses, their aspect conditions, and house rulers. (Tyl, Noel. Page 144 vol 1X The Principles and Practices of Astrology)
With Pluto on the cusp of the 7th house, opposed Saturn and the Moon in the 12th house, I moved to North Carolina in 1998. I looked at this tension in my chart as a challenge and an opportunity not as a prelude to Cancer. Now in 2007 I am fighting stage 3 Multiple Myeloma. Multiple Myeloma is a insidious blood cancer that in effect attacks the bones, primarily those in the spine and chest area. A great deal of pain and discomfort is associated with this terrible blood cancer.
Although I believe that this disease has been active for quite a long time. Its noticeable presence began exactly on June 7, 1996. On that bright June day I was at work at my school. You see, until very recently, I was an elementary school Kindergarten Teacher. One of my students had slid his legs accidentally under the playground chain link fence. I thought to left the flexible fence to free the student, but in the process it seemed that I had hurt my own back. The pain was so severe that I decided to go to the nearby urgent care facility for assistance. That was the beginning of months of medical visits to doctors associated with a program called Workers Compensation. X-rays, scan, MRI all followed. However no one associated with Workers Comp. detected any health issue other than sore muscles. Yet the pain seemed to be growing worse and more determined. And as I complained about the increasing levels of pain the doctors seemed less willing to provide help with the pain issue. Actually, In December on 2006 I was in the office of a specialist reviewing a “contrasting” MRI film and was told that everything would be fine. But I knew that something just wasn’t right. So this past January I took a copy of the film with me as I went for a semiannual medical at my family doctors office.
Within minutes my doctor recognized the signs of Cancer in the film, and the direction of my life changed. Its amazing to consider all the experts that looked at that same MRI film and couldn’t suggest a darn thing.
My Oncologist seems to be a great guy. He is aggressively fighting this cancer with the newest drugs and therapies available. However, during the first chemo round, my personal mobility was dramatically reduced due to the intense pain and bone damage. Currently I seem to be making a good deal of improvement managing the pain and my bones seem to be improving due to the therapies being applied. Now I’ve finished the second chemo round and soon I’ll start a third. I find that I do have some time. Time that was in so short supply at earlier times now seems quite available.
Some news
I'm cleaning up different areas of the site, and I thought that I would delete a lot of my past comments and briefly present a note about my current state.
My blood work is now completely in the normal range. I can not tell you how amazed I am. I am actually doing very well. However, because of the bone damage there are lots of limitation on what I can do. But I feel good! Last January I was not sure if I would make it to the end of the month, so this is really cool.
I am required to sit a lot, so as a result I have been improving my Astrology skills a lot, and having phone consultations with a steady stream of wonderful clients. I have not yet had an IM consultation. But I guess it's possible.
If you are curious, I use a tremendous amount of suppliments in addition to my chemo. They seem to help with a host of symptoms and I believe they have helped stop the cancer as well. I is possible that I am experiencing some improvement in my bones. However, any improvement is slight. Actually if feelings/sensations count, I would guess that I have had some repair to my bones. However, the basic, structural bone damage most likely is unrepaired. I hope that some day they are completely restored. Not sure how or when that's going to happen. But I am looking, and know that good stuff can happen too.